GOD, WHY CAN"T I ?

GOD ?
why CAN't I ?


it's definetly !
i still can't accept all things that i have to !
i've tried !
buttt....
i just can't !
why ?
why do i have to feel it ?
why ?
why do u have to be so "FUCKIN STRANGE" ?
i thought i know ur self ?
i thought u can be trusted !
but, the fact of this fuck is .
u can't !
i was wrong giving u a trusted ?
i was wrong thinking u my friend ?
yea, u're my friend !
but, not as same as what i used to think is !
u used me !
u used MEEEEEE !
u used me for thing that "IEEUWW it's not really important"
but, thanks .
i've realized !
people got two sides !
outside's can be good !
but, DON'T ASK THE INSIDE"S !
it'll be fucking HELL !
cuz, u're not gonna know !



btw, school didn't call my parents up to school !
cuz, my score's not too bad !
it's yaaa .
enough good !
but, eventhough it's good !
i don't used to be happy !
i'm pathetic !
suck pathetic !

pleasee GOD !
gimme ur answer,cuz i dun wanna it's getting bigger !
just say !
should i or not ?

tht's it !



hmm, i'm goin' to finish this !
seee you guys !
:(

HELL NO !

hmm .

i'm sitting in front of my computer now, surfing the net, teaching my mommah bout the internet .

and studying my english for tomorrow's test !
btw,i'm goin' to epan's house later !

we got a HELL math project !
and i don't like it !
and .

the REAL HELL IS !
my midterm report card is goin' to be given

T-0-M-0-R-R-0-W

IEUWWW !
i dun knw why,but my heart's always DUG-DUG, DAG-DAG, all the time !
i'm nervous,

i've done my best !
but, i'm having a bad feelin !
hmm .

besides, my problem's just added !

i got one more problem !
and it sucks !
sucks more than anything !
why do u have to be like it ?
whyyyyyy ?
and whyy ?

now,

i can only pray !
" God,please gimme a peaceful heart to accept all things that i have to,cuz i still can't accept any of it until now ! i want, but i won't ! also, please take me away from that dreams, from that feelings !

and pleasee wake me up, cuz i wanna know what's the matter of this problem is, i also want u to gimme the best way to be, just let me think, if they're happy, i also have to be happy"

thanks GOD !

u're the best !

as the pray's finished !

means i also have to end this fucking post which is really pathetic !

see ya !

:(

AWWWWW !

aww !

i'll hate this week !

u knw what ?

fucking homeworks,exams,mid semester report,assigments are waiting !
tomorrow, i got an social exam,

and i have to submit my punishment cuz i didn't finish 5 fucking questions from about 100 questions !
ieeuuww ~

the punishment is,i have to write 100 sentences with the 5 questions on it !
and what the hell !
i dun even have touched it up !
i dun knw why, but spirit's still away from my self !
hmm,i also have to make a chord for 2 songs,cuz i'll play the keyboard again next monday!

every ceremony the teacher said !

i dun realy wanna it !

but,i'm lil bit happy !

anddd the REAL HELL IS ..

MY MID SEMESTER REPORT CARD IS GOIN' TO BE GIVEN TO ME !

thing that companying me all the time is .

if our score's bad,they're goin' to call our parents up to school !
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW !

i hate it !
u knw what,from my 1st elementary until this 2nd junior high school,i've been called for one time !
even still one time !
i dun wanna make the second !
my mommah and my dadeehh are goin' to gimme a fucking present that no one will like it !
i'm scared !
but,that's it !
that'll be my destiny !
i've done my best !
hmm .

btw, our school doesn't make any mid semester test for our mid semester report !

hha,i love it !

they take the score from our daily exams,and exercise !
some i got good marks,but the other i got BIG HELL !

ieeuuw !
pleasee,pray me up !

if u still love me !
AWW,too dramatic !

that's all !
i'm goin' to study now !
see ya worlds !
;)